The Beginning of the End.

School has started once again, for me it's the last time it'll start for quite some time!
How sad and exciting does that sound?

I've had a long term relationship with school. We've been together for the majority of my life. School's been good to me. It's offered valuble knowledge, a gaggle of friends, and some awesome experiences, but now, I've gotten all I can from school. I can't keep up with her demanding costs and demands. As much as I would like to right now school and I have to part. I have to go my own seperate ways and wait till I can return to school and give her what she needs. Give her the time, the money, and all the attention she craves. I've heard the more time you spend with school she just keeps asking for more.

The parting will definately be a bittersweet sorrow. First off, going to school is the only life I've known for the past 18 years. I'd have to adjust to this new boring life called, "the real world" where everything is soo....dismal! But at the same time, the end of this year is sort of open ended. Granted I'm looking for a job and doing the normal college graduate thing, but it definately doesn't mean that I have to do that. I am pretty much free to do whatever I want, even though I have a substantial financial burden. After this semester I don't really have any obligations. And that's the exciting part.

So for my last semester you would think that I would have taken some rather easy classes. Intro perhaps to everything. I didn't though, and actually I'm still a bit upset with my schedule. I could have handled 18 credits damn it, but I decided to only take 15. Better to err on the side of caution I suppose. I took one class that I think will be easy, and then decided to take three hard classes ones a grad class. Why? Because I am a self sadomasochistic, I enjoy both giving myself pain and the pain itself! Yeah! It should make for an interesting semester though....a very interesting semester.

And there you have it.

Cause all I want to do is hug and nuzzle and cuddle with you

sometimes it amazes me how complete i feel when i'm with him.

times pass when all i want to do is crawl inside of him and stay there, so we're never far apart.

he makes me feel whole and most importantly completely happy.