Waiting Room

Sittingin the waiting room of my doctor's office. Getting my knee looked at post accident. I hate that my knee is messed up. I hate that my car is messed up. I hate that I have too jump through hurdles because one person couldn't make a left turn properly. One person's inability to wait is using up my precious time!! I don't want to talk to insurance agents, I don't want to talk to adjusters. I definitely don't want to see the doctor. I wanted to start running again.

It's pouring out. If you factor out the shorts and summer dresses today is more like a winter day than the summer. The day does nothing to help my spirits. I hope I get into graduate school. I hope I get a better job. I hope Ruthy and I get this house we're looking at. I'm hopeful but at the same time I feel like none of this will work out.

Rent

If you want my apartment, sleep in it
but let's have a clear understanding:
the books are still free agents.

If the rocking chair's arms surround you
they can also let you go,
they can shape the air like a body.

I don't want your rent, I want
a radiance of attention
like the candle's flame when we eat,

I mean a kind of awe
attending the spaces between us---
Not a roof but a field of stars.

--Jane Cooper

Saw Transcendent Man Live  with Abe and Jer of Ultraweekend.net and Eliezer,  Wednesday night.  While I think there's a lot of social changes that need to happen before the Utopian Singularity that I think RayKurzweil envisions, the live discussion was a good way to start the discussion of what the future is going to bring about. It also wasn't as I feel propaganda ridden and so assertive of this Utopian future as the film was.  Which was nice.   I don't have any doubt that the technology will get there.  I don't doubt the ability for humans to get to that point. What I wonder is are we at the right point as a society to get there?  I think the answer is no. Before we can get to that point, we need a social revolution.  I think that would need to happen before anything else.



I will comment on this more later but I have work to do!