Sad Songs Say So Much

"Lonelily"
I gave me away
I could have knocked off the evening
But I lonelily landed my wants in her hands
In a way I felt you were leaving me
I was sure I wouldn't find you at home
And you let me down
You could have knocked off the evening
But you lonelily let him push under your bone
You let me down
It's no use deceiving
Neither of us wanna be alone

You're coming home, you're coming home

I gave me away
I could have knocked off the evening
But I was lonelily looking for someone to hold
In a way I lost all I believed in
And I never found myself so low
And you let me down
You could've called if you'd needed
But you lonelily got yourself locked in instead
And you let me down
It's one thing being cheated
But you took him all the way through your bed

And now you're coming home
And I'm trying to forgive
You're coming home
And I'm trying to forget
You're coming home
And I'm trying to move on
You're coming home
And you haven't called yet

You're coming home
And I'm trying to forgive
You're coming home
I'm just trying to forget
You're coming home
I'm trying to move on
You're coming home
But you haven't called
You're coming home

You're coming home, you're coming home

I gave me away
I could have knocked off the evening
But I lonelily loomed her into my bone
You let me down
There's no use deceiving
Neither of us wanna be alone
Damien Rice

Ahh.... Mr. Rice, curse you and your home hitting lyrics. And nature I would've preferred the bigger gut over the larger brain right now. Though I must admit, I do this to myself, I put myself in these moods and situations and rather than being productive, I just sit and mope in my own inability to do anything well.

There are books that need to be sold, others that need to be read, notes that need to be digitized, index cards that need to be re organized, bone field guides that need to be reorganized, an apartment to be set up and millions of other things I could tackle instead of enjoying myself at own emo laden pity party. I definitely bite off more than I can chew and I need to stop filing myself with things I'll never be able to swallow let alone digest. It's nice to have fun sometimes, but I need to actually get back to work sooner than I thought I would.

Ugh!

At least I got pretty flowers! : )