I've given up all pretense of being a programmer. 8 years of college got me nothing but $90,000 in loans to repay. I have to suck it up and accept that I'm not what I'm not. I've a nice, safe job w/ good health insurance and that's good enough for me.

via Lord Omlette

Pretenses such as those terrify me.  I'm scared that I'll one day come to the same conclusion and I don't want to.  It's a door I try hard to run from, but fear is the closest one to me.